What do you want to make this about?

 "I'd like to go outside." Those are the words I hear every time I look after my nephew. For him, staying inside the house is like being in prison, whereas walking outside brings him such tremendous delight. It simply makes him happy. I wish I could watch him grow, but I know I can't, which makes me appreciate parenthood. The prospect of witnessing someone develop from a helpless child to an adult who will one day tell you something like, 'fuck off.' I know, it's terrifying.

Because our bodies are memory carriers, you've probably had a few flashes of certain events. If I could go back in time, there are some portions of my life script that I would change, but then I wonder, what if I rewrote them and had a horrible outcome? Would I be able to forgive myself? Of course not, it would just be a new round of finger pointing. Something to keep making me feel bad about myself.

What is the tale you wish to tell?Do you want to be this person who seemed sad their entire life because something was bothering them but never got to stand up for themselves and face their fears in any way, or do you want to be this person who was an independent thinker who squashed their fears regardless of the outcome and gave their life on earth a meaning?

However, this does not have to be the case. Isn't it enough if we get a little money to keep us from going hungry? What goes through the head of a person caught stealing when he is caught? That he could have been happy with what he had? No matter how murky positive advices or messages are designed to be, they are supposed to lead us away from going backwards to being unhappy, from being a slave to bad ideas.

So, how about we get into the habit of listening to podcasts, reading books, and listening to other people's ideas? Let's hear what others have to say because you'll realize we're never alone. Someone will declare aloud what has been bothering you. It wasn't long ago that folks couldn't mention the terms "sex" and "vagina" without feeling anxious, but now it's considered normal. We are now a little more liberated.

I once read that you can't love something and expect it to last unless there's something in it for you. Well, I'm here to tell you that life has a lot to offer, and you don't have to be the life of the party to enjoy it. There is something for you among the living, laughing on bad days, your favorite meal. Whatever it is that makes you joyful.